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Okay so, I did it. I did it maybe to make a point, but I sent in some pics in relation to the contest. However, the acceptance letter I got didn't mention HIM so I don't think they realized that I was senidng the pics for the heartagram day thing (although I sent pics of me in a heartagram tee.)

Nonetheless I had mixed feelings.

1) I didn't think I would get picked, but I received acceptance the day after sending--kewl beans!
2) I figured most for the pics were cheesecake erotics ( ie hints of nudity) Didn't realize how full on it was. Not too bad a thing, but I do have some body issues , esp sinc ehaving my baby and having c-section scar ( yes, I know I know, however, I don't allow my now body issues ot make me hate women who are self confident and beautiful, which was my true point ( for all the haters who might respond), but I digress)
3) I have to take a bunch o' photos and submit them for them to see if they would desire to put them on the site -- they have to be pro pics. If they like them I get paid 500 dollars and get a bit of promo for my music...

Since I am a DIY/Indie artist ( no major label), the exposure ( no pun intended) would be invaluable.

I dunno--I hemmed and hawed and finally sent a letter to the model coordinator letting her know I was a wee bit uncomfortable with the nudity aspects but that I felt the suicide girls rawked.

She told me that it was kewl but she'd keep my info online in case I changed my mind.

I dunno--I feel so awkward after talking about female sexuality about backing out, like I so should put my money where my mouth is, but then again, for me it was about c the right to choice and supporting women who feel good about their sexuality and their beauty, not about people just getting naked for the sake of, well, getting naked...

My hubby and I took pics this evening of a mock photos for SG...I posted them tonight in my picture section ( no nude tho' ;-))...I dunno--nervous, excited...what to do???