Blog entry

what a long, strange trip it has been. a saying that my sister, who likes to be a hippie, often says and has entered my mind today. today is the last day of a job that i have done for over seventeen years, and many strange and unusual thoughts and a flood of memories have been slowly creeping thru my brain. it is so weird to be leaving a place that has been a second home to me for such a very long time. it has been a place which has purely defined a love hate relationship. the classic scenario were you fall into something as a last resort, and end up becoming very good at it by mistake. although i worked very hard for a long time at becoming very good at what i do, some of it was just dumb luck. and sometimes i think maybe it was just because i was desparate enough to be the one who stuck around the longest.
i have blogged about this job previously, and although it is a good thing for me to move on, i guess i just need the place to put my final thoughts and to also tell others that if you are miserable at something, change it.
Piped into the workplace that i am leaving is horrible easy listening music. at random yesterday, a green day song happened to play out of no where, totally out of place with what is usually played. although i am not a huge fan, i recognized the song as one that played during my son's high school graduation. part of the lyrics where "dont wait for someone to tell you that its too late...." which fits right in with how i feel about leaving that job. it was something that i struggled with and that held me back from leaving a situation that was comfortable, yet was making me miserable.
for me, i am leaving my final goodbyes to that job today. as i was in a leadership role, i did not get the chance to make good friends with anyone as it interfered with the work. but in my mind and heart, i will remember the good and challenging times, the lessons learned mostly by myself, and have a firm answer to the question, did i do the very best that i could? you bet i did.
and to those of you who may be struggling in a difficult situation, whether it be work related or life related, dont be afraid to take the steps to better yourself and your situation. it is never too late to put yourself first, put that toe out there and test new waters, all the while relying on yourself and realizing that it is truly to your own self that you must be true.
what a long, strange day that it is going to be.......
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